Dear Happily Ever After,

     Fairy tales always have a pretty damsel in distress who is swept away and rescued by the hero. The knight in shining armor sweeps in on his valiant steed. He wields a large sword and fights off dragons. His steel shining armor protects him as he pulls his helmet off his head and he is handsome and graceful. He fights off the dragon and rescues his damsel taking her to safety, marrying her and living happily ever after.

   I have a story. It isn't quite like that. My knight in shining armor is more  like a  guy in a clinch gear hoodie and a Avalanche beanie. He is still strikingly handsome and graceful (when he wants to be). He doesn't have a steed but he does have a pretty valiant gold Honda. He doesn't wield a large silver sword. I don't think he has fought off any dragons either... Yet, somehow, he has rescued me. I know we have our problems, every relationship does. I don't know what is going to happen tomorrow, or what will happen the day after that. What I do know is one day, whenever that is, I will live happily ever after with my beanie wearing, hoodie wielding, Honda driving knight. 

   Sometimes he says the wrong things, and sometimes I get mad at him. Sometimes I am justified and sometimes I am not. But regardless, at the end of the day. My favorite place in the whole world is curled up next to him with his head on my stomach, even if it is heavy. We will make it through everything. I have faith. Regardless of the past. It is all up from here. I have to get some sleep, but I needed to share the beginning of my fairy tale. Keep you all posted.

     -xoxo, Jessi.

Dear Changes,

     I am used to taking you on head first. However, do you think you could cool throwing a thousand changes at me at once? Could you just calm down a bit? I mean. I am working two jobs, which is rough. Then you add school and a social life and I am about wore out. Then, I am moving out soon which is probably my most exciting change happening. I just don't know if I can handle it all at once. Though, I am tough enough to know I am just going to have to figure it out.
    Okay, changing the subject though. There is this boy. Him and I have been through a lot. I mean a lot. He is one of my best friends. And happens to be my boyfriend. I was not exactly the best person to him the first time we dated. We both made mistakes. He seems to be over it, though I still feel guilty. Which I appreciate. I really do. I just... I just want everything to be forgotten, however I know that will never happen. I am really sorry for what I did. I really am. I would never do it again. That is for sure.
     We went apartment shopping the other day. It was so exciting. Living with him is so exciting. I think it is going to make us so much stronger. I am really serious about him. It is almost scary. I just know that our lives will be so much better when we move in together. I know it will solidify everything for me, and I hope it does the same for him. My only concern is it seems too good to be true. I have always been told if it seems to good then it is too good. But I am putting everything I have into this relationship this time. Absolutely everything because at the end of the day, I know that even if I had the worst day in the world, my bugga will be there to make me smile. And if he doesn't make me smile, he is there to cuddle up with and forget the world for a while. And I don't think he will ever understand how much that, how much he means to me. I love you.
           -xoxo, Jessi.