Dear Changes,

     I am used to taking you on head first. However, do you think you could cool throwing a thousand changes at me at once? Could you just calm down a bit? I mean. I am working two jobs, which is rough. Then you add school and a social life and I am about wore out. Then, I am moving out soon which is probably my most exciting change happening. I just don't know if I can handle it all at once. Though, I am tough enough to know I am just going to have to figure it out.
    Okay, changing the subject though. There is this boy. Him and I have been through a lot. I mean a lot. He is one of my best friends. And happens to be my boyfriend. I was not exactly the best person to him the first time we dated. We both made mistakes. He seems to be over it, though I still feel guilty. Which I appreciate. I really do. I just... I just want everything to be forgotten, however I know that will never happen. I am really sorry for what I did. I really am. I would never do it again. That is for sure.
     We went apartment shopping the other day. It was so exciting. Living with him is so exciting. I think it is going to make us so much stronger. I am really serious about him. It is almost scary. I just know that our lives will be so much better when we move in together. I know it will solidify everything for me, and I hope it does the same for him. My only concern is it seems too good to be true. I have always been told if it seems to good then it is too good. But I am putting everything I have into this relationship this time. Absolutely everything because at the end of the day, I know that even if I had the worst day in the world, my bugga will be there to make me smile. And if he doesn't make me smile, he is there to cuddle up with and forget the world for a while. And I don't think he will ever understand how much that, how much he means to me. I love you.
           -xoxo, Jessi.