Dear Growing Up,

   I hate you. You are filled with so much heartbreak. I would much rather be a little kid. When things were innocent. I want innocence. Once you lose your innocence (in all ways that term may be used) things are never the same.I want to be 16 again. When I was young and free and innocent. Those were the days when the biggest drama in your life were who wore the same shirt as you. They seemed so tragic then, but compared to the issues I deal with now, I would wear the same shirt as someone any day.
   When you are younger, things are little. There is nothing extremely stressful occurring. I wish that is where I was now. I don't want to worry about the mortgage, and bills, and work, and school, and figuring out love. I don't want to worry about what is going to happen next year, next month or even tomorrow. I want one week where I can just be young. Go lay in the grass and watch the sunset, just because I can. Go play in mud, just because I can. I want to be able to live like I don't have a worry in the world. But. My name is Jessi, I am 19 years-old, and I feel like the weight of the world is on my shoulders. I have to grow up. I don't want to. I see these 25 to 30 year-old's that act like I should be acting at 19, and here I am stuck acting like those 25- 30 year old people should be. It sucks. I just want to live a love story for one summer. I want to dance in the rain, and do all the cliche things that everyone takes for granted. I don't want to grow up, but I have to. Based on this I figure, I should go to bed, because  I have to wake up at 6 am, for a 15 hour shift. Yeah, that is where I am at. Goodnight, I will talk to you tomorrow.
                      -xoxo, Jessi.