Dear Moving On,

      I have quite the track record with you. It is so true. My parents are to the point they know nothing is solid for more than a year. Also true. I broke up with my boyfriend two days ago. It was tough. Probably one of the hardest things I have ever had to do, but I needed to. I realize, after two days, I am already feeling less bogged down. I am not an innocent person in our relationship, and I accept my mistakes. About a week before our relationship was over, I found comfort with someone else, which in all honesty is a sugar-coated way of saying I fooled around on my boyfriend. I am not proud of that. Not at all. I normally would have never ever done that, but you know, I am not going to be upset, or be mad at myself for it. And here is why. I felt beautiful, and sexy. I felt freaking important for once. I am not proud of it. But damn did it make sense to me at the time.
     I never ever would wish ill-will to my ex. Never. He will make someone happy, especially when he grows up. Unfortunately I just felt that I was slightly more mature than him, in a lot of ways. It isn't fair of me to say that I am a ton more mature than him. But in most ways, I feel like he didn't have the future in mind. And that is a huge issue for me. I am very proud of the person he molded me into, and I hope I had the same effect on him. However, I just don't think that we are suited to be together long term. So, as for now, I am going to focus on my schooling, my career, and just having fun without the scary commitments. That is what I want. I won't ever forget our relationship, nor do I regret a thing, I just think it is time for us to move forward. More posts today, I have to catch everyone up, and I have been very busy, so get prepared for two or three in a row here.
                 -xoxo, Jessi.